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Failure
03:11
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If I could just say it (are you listening to me?) would it come right back to me, or echo from the back wall of the canyon? (its tangible in front of you, dont you see?) The outer edges of infinity.
| Come to terms and youve learned from the failure | You built yourself into a life (what i wanted was the opposite) you forgot to enjoy it, empty hollow hulking shell of a life (years past your time to quit) it's too easy now for you to destroy it. Take the broken parts, make something new. It's possible.
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Canopy
02:25
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Arms like limbs in wind testing equations for flight, my heart built like a tree trunk adding the rings around it. Bending towards the high noon sky, the efficiency of light. My head built loose and busy ask me what I think about it. | Head like a canopy, full of rustling leaves, heart like a tree trunk count the rings. | Legs and feet tied up together in one long dirty mess, living below ground I know the limitless potential. Buried down just to be rooted up in the cruelest time of flood, learning to stay planted is the hardest part I guess.
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Beautiful Out
02:21
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Been riding my bike, it’s beautiful out. Still have to remind myself, my worth isn’t tied to. | The loops around, and the miles traveled. The stacks of records at the end of the day. | Bike a few days in a row, back tire’s getting low. Don’t afford myself the same leniency in terms of a refill.
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Never Be Me
02:53
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Take a shower just for the steam, remember 18th birthday party, for Bethany. Played games on the corner tv, rattled snares on the shelf set the scene for the Tom Waits clean. | I knew that could never be me, I knew that would never be me. | While Allie alone gripped the can, waiting for a boy come to grab it from her hand. Mike will pull some shit no surprise no one here’s gonna let that slide he’s been doing that his whole life. We kicked him out to the curb, we knew we had other plans for ourselves.
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Your First Cigarette
03:02
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I witnessed your first cigarette, did you know what it meant? You didn’t heed the signs.
I won't even fetch a mention, there’s a lifetime between me and you lost looking for the smoking section, a nostalgia you never knew. They say that smoking kills still you’re out here trying. While I'm stuck up inside but we’re both dying. You wished that cars still came with lighters to warm that feeling inside, try and see if you can find her, the little one that you used to be before the world turned and left you cold and weary in between, you’re out here trying.
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I Know
03:04
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What you’re really in love with is youth, you just can’t believe the way your own left you. What you’re really afraid of can’t hurt you, it’s just an idea, an abstraction of falling out of view. | I know I can’t keep my place on a folded page, yeah I know I’m losing days looking back always but the wait of it all, so precariously placed on me. | Got lost keeping track of what makes up you, just a collection of items, some kind of proof I was here, I exist, these walls they were my view. The stacks of records played, and played again, again.
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Coming Back To Life
02:16
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Bowdark’s truck stop, we’re losing light. I saw the life in the deer eyes, from dear old empty eyes. You shoulda seen it come back to life, untied from it’s car hood, so soft on it’s feet. Just like it was the first time. Another day with you out on the run, you said Arizona, or maybe New Mexico. I know you’ve been before but I never have. All the secrets I could know if I could follow you. You shoulda seen her come back to life, in the mobile home living room, so soft on the carpet. Just like it was the first time.
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Enough
04:00
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You get ahead of it, then you’re found where you fell. I don’t always take the time for myself. I gotta find it in the world written in somebody’s truth, if it’s not time tested what’s the use? I need a long time, to try and understand I am no exception. | Say something enough times, it becomes true. Sing that song enough times, it becomes you. | I talk a big emotional game from the stands, and stay planted sidelines every time. The crowd cheers and encourages, there’s work to be done. I can talk all day but I’m not the one staring in the mirror, reflected back, seeing myself in.
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She Went Into The Bay
03:04
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She went into the bay, though we knew we’d see her again. She rolled out with the current well I guess you can call them friends. I took a walk as one does, amble ‘round in an outdoor space. I dipped into the bay myself, swam down and I saw her face. | We all go to the bay some day, and see ourselves in the depths. Tryna find the answers to questions but all we get are the steps. | I’m not one for advice, I make my own mind up in time. I went out on a limb with her, felt the sun and basked in it’s shine. Our day will someday come, we all face ourselves in the end, will you know within your heart, your life was lived full with intent?
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If You Ask Me
01:48
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If you ask me I’d rather have the trees than another apartment, across the street from another apartment. They’ll even paint them green, what a sick joke, it’s obscene. If you ask me I’d rather have the trees than another hotel, across the street from another hotel. Paintings of corporate greed, more units we have no need, if you ask me.
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Say What's Unsaid
03:56
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I’m not gonna lie to your face here tonight. I'm part of the problem. I built up this whole life one brick at a time the work is never done. | I'll say what's unsaid, I miss the sound of voices. |
I'm keeping it in mind through all the inside time, I know how nothing works. It's a creeping hulking void, do I even have a choice? The illusion only hurts. Run to your lovers door
knock it down with fists, or a little more say it's all ok.
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Secret
03:23
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I’ve struggled for some years with decay, I know we all do. It’s one thing that’s for sure. We take the parts we like to see, what a very human response, it’s quite a way to be. | Sanctified memory, forever in reverie like everyone else does. The story inside of me, a book of straight heresy like everyone else does. | The mind’s eye picture takes a certain hue, and visiting just makes a mess. Distorting all we thought we knew as true, life story is blending with the rest.
I’m the king of a palace of memory caught speeding down my childhood streets, stuck in a mirror maze I see myself hold a sharpie cardboard sign says help, I’m lost again. Like a secret I can’t tell no one else, family photobook fell off the shelf open up to the middle empty page somehow I can only see my face, I’m stuck again. Feels like a secret I hold a piece of, no one else does.
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tragwag Providence, Rhode Island
punk with singing, lots of feelings.
sometimes loud, sometimes acoustic, always trying to play where you are.
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